This is the letter I would write you if I weren't just as stubborn and passive aggressive as you are.
M,
I'm sorry.
We should've talked instead of texting, I should have been as pushy as you say I was on other things on that.
I thought I was being needy. I guess it's a matter of perception.
I'm sorry I wanted to see you so badly that I was inconsiderate of the things you need to do.
After all these years of knowing each other you overwhelmed me - by holding my hand of all things. Well, everything else too but that was a bit later.
Had you ever touched me before that night? I was uncertain if I wanted your touch, since I have heard more about you than I know about you, until you grabbed my hand, it was a gentle and unexpected act. From when you kissed me in the car you're the only one I've wanted.
You terrified me when you said you love me, and I just can't say it back, because that's a lie I won't tell.
If we're done we're done. It wasn't long enough for me to miss you too badly.
Mostly as I fall asleep at night.
Even if we never touch again please forgive me.
B
But that is the letter I won't send since I said I wouldn't be the one to initiate contact.
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